I have been a bit disconnected for the past few days. The live-in boyfriend of 5 years- whelp, I guess I should say ex-boyfriend and I broke up. Don’t worry this blog isn’t going to become a space for me to vent about how heartbroken I am or how hard it is to live in the apartment we shared together (he moved out, LB and I stayed). The reason I am pouring this out to you is because I have a valid question – what happens to LuLu Bean?
We got LuLu Bean together. We were a little family. He said she will stay with me (duh), but it doesn’t mean I don’t want him to want to see her. She was like a child. She was the closest thing to a child he and I will ever have.
They say dogs can sense emotions. These last few days have proven that to me. LB is lethargic, the night it happens she puked. She licks my tears and stays by my side as I watch break up movie after break up movie.
When we get home from a walk she runs from room to room looking for him. When she realizes he isn’t here, I quickly grab a treat or throw a ball to take her mind off of it. She knows that our life is changing. I can’t help but wonder – who will get over the loss first? It is obvious that both of us are grieving.